Don't be an a-dull-t. Allow your inner child to come out and play.
When you're younger you can't wait for those milestone birthdays. Being a teenager, getting your driving permit, getting your driver's license, becoming a legal adult, being of legal age to drink... They all seem so exciting and you feel like you are never going to get there. You don't realize when your younger that the years of running unabashedly through the sprinkler, cooking with your easy-bake over, shoot nerf guns at your friends will soon pass.
And then you do. You hit 22 or 23 and you realize your next milestone birthday is being the big 3-0! You've graduated college, perhaps moved out on your own, found a full-time job that you enjoy. Your life gets into a routine. On flip side, you graduated college, still live at home while you search for that full-time job. Your loans become due. You have car payments. You have somehow magically left the 'fake world' for the 'real world.'
Once, you couldn't wait for that day to come. Once. But now you have become an adult. Or even an a-dull-t. One who doesn't give a second thought to their inner child who has their nose pressed against the glass, hands spread out like they can somehow mime their way out. I skipped some of those kid years. At a graduation party a few weeks ago my cousin told me to sit down and enjoy myself. I should just be one of the kids/cousins. I looked at her and said, "I don't know how."
I dont know how to let go. To just have a good time and not worry about someone getting hurt, making sure everyone is having a good time, that they are safe etc. This is something I need to work on. I can't be an a-dull-t the rest of my life. I don't want to live that way, it's just how I am. I need to learn to let my inner child come out and play. We need to put away the worries of everyday life. Play a pick up game of some sort, have a bonfire, go out with friends.
That kid with his or her nose pressed against the glass, staring outside. Just waiting. Once in awhile, let that kid come out and play.