Life is full of H2IK moments. As a teacher I have had more than my fair share. H2IK originates from a short lived TV show called Defying Gravity. The term can be used to appear as if you are giving a technical explanation for something when in fact you don't know. If someone who is familiar with the term hears it, it can be considered a request to help explain without embarrassing the original speaker (explanation found on Urban Dictionary).
So what is H2IK? It means "Hell if I know." We all have these moments, right? Whether its when I'm teaching and a student wants to know exactly how many soldiers died on D+3, or who the first person was to shoot a bullet during the Spanish-American War. While I love their curiosity, H2IK. I'm not a walking encyclopedia.
Maybe it's when someone asks you what your plans are now that you are done with college. H2IK. I can make all the plans that I want, it doesn't mean they are going to happen. I planned on getting a job right out of college, didn't happen. I planned on being in a serious relationship by now, didn't happen. Am I complaining? No. Because someday it's going to happen. And if it doesn't that I just have to believe it wasn't meant to be. Because there are plenty of things I DO know.
I know that my family loves me even when we drive each other crazy. I know that I made my parents proud by graduating college. I know that God has plans for my brother despite his disabilities. I know that the experiences I had as a babysitter and as a nanny helped me to save a baby's life. I know that while I may not have many friends, I have friends that count. I know that I am not the smartest, funniest, prettiest girl in the world. But I'm not supposed to be. I know that I am who God made me to be. I know that I may try to be someone I'm not, but I don't need to. I know that who I am is enough. I know that the desires of my heart will be fulfilled in God's time (and when I don't know it, I have to believe it).
I know that sometimes its okay to say H2IK. Because sometimes, we can't know it all.