Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Forget Butterflies, Try Dragon-Flies

We've heard it said when we are nervous or anxious about something and you get that weird feeling in your stomach that it's butterflies.  That racing, fluttering, rumbling feeling... butterflies.

Everyone, well I bet almost everyone, has had them at some point.  Whether it's over a job, a car, a relationship, a new experience, excitement over a purchase... there's something that gives you butterflies.

My car is old.  The air has gone out, and I have no cup holders left.  For someone who lives in Minnesota summers can get hot.  I'm a big coffee and soda drinker, so no cup holders can get tricky.  Trivial, I know.  But still.  So I've been searching for a new car.  The car is not working out, dealer is being frustrating (surprise, right?).

As the school year ends I'm also looking for a job.  A chance to have my own classroom.  I had an interview on Monday.  At a school I think I would love to teach at (even though there are some things that I'm not crazy about with the position).  I student taught there, and some people had put in a good word for me.  So I felt like this was something I really wanted to do, and there was pressure to live up to people's expectations.  But I also had to live up to my own.

My dream is to teach.  To share my love of history with my students.  So you'd expect butterflies, right?  I had a fierce case of something stronger than butterflies going on in my stomach.

 Oh no I had dragonflies.

But not a dragonfly that you would see at a pond, or park.  But huge a** fire breathing, wing flapping dragon.  Dragon-fly!

But now, the job, that job, is out of my hands.  Something that I can no longer control.  Next up is trying to deal with the car.  I may need to give up on the one I was set on, I may now have to lease not buy.  Who knows.  So I'm hoping my big case of dragon-flys starts to ease.  Because the anxiety that I'm feeling today, can't last forever.  Right?

I'll say a little prayer, read a book, take a deep breath, and take another step.  Because the dragon gets defeated in the end.

Remember to live the best you can.  Love the most you can.  Tell the people that you love, you love them.  Take a break and soak up the sun.  
 Moments are precious, many things can wait... The Sunset Won't.

1 comment:

  1. Loved this post..
    I think I am also going to have a dragon fly time soon

    all the best to you


    Yogini Anya


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