Where Did I Put It?

I know I put it somewhere.  I had it in my hand and then one minute it was just gone.  You'd think a phone is something you could keep better track of.  I use to to call, to text, as an alarm, as a flashlight.

I use it all the time.

Yet I still managed to misplace it.

I searched high and low.  Walked around my house a few times, looking in the bathroom (even though I was sure I hadn't left it there).

Then I decided that retracing my steps might be the way to go.  My next step was to retrace my steps.  However, that required me remember the last time I had it in my hand.  The last time I remember using that phone.

Seriously!?

I remembered having it in my room while I was getting ready.  I remember putting on my sweater and getting ready to walk into the living room.  On my way out the door I forgot I didn't have jewelry on, so I stopped to grab some earrings and my ring.

Sure enough, I walked to the dresser, opened the lid where jewelry is kept and it was there!

I really shouldn't be so excited to find my phone, but I was.  I felt momentarily lost.  Stuck.  Stagnant.

Much like I've felt about my faith lately.

I know I had it.  I know that I used it all the time.  I know how life felt different with it.  I also know how it feels without it.

So I look.  I search.  I try to remember when I had it last.  I retrace my steps.

The catch?  This shouldn't feel like an assignment.  What I should do.  I can't turn it into a to-do list item.

Get faith back.  Check.  Feel strong in faith.  Check check.

No.

That's not what it should be about.  At least, that's not what I believe it should be about.

So I wait.  And search.  And hope.  Hope that I haven't lost it completely.  But that it's just hidden somewhere I haven't yet looked.

And I remember that not long ago, just over a month and a half, I was inspired to choose a word for 2013.  That my word was reclaim.  I didn't know why at the time.  I still don't.  But I've reminded myself of the word... there is a reason it was chosen and maybe this might lead me to it.

There are many things in life that can wait... 

but The Sunset Won't.